Roses of Ash and Shadow.

Morbid Beauty : Not everything was a nightmare.. there were times where I was happy. Where i felt whole and at home. Everytime I was with you, my heart would beat happily.. not heavily with heartache, like it does now. I'm sure nothing makes sense.. especially now and it hasnt for awhile. heh.. and it makes me wonder how we got to where we are currently. It's hard sometimes.. to think about. That we arent together anymore..  You were everything. I miss you a lot, and i cant stop that, or this feeling.

My dear.. how unsettling it is. That in the end, our love was always our poison. When with another we are destructive yet passionate.. and far apart, we are broken yet complete. I like to think.. sometimes that our end was just our beginning. That we could be with another once again. Like the Rose that grew from my soul, the day I swore myself to you. I gave part of me away. .. I meant it when I said I'd love you forever.. that will never change. I just wish you'd listen... and give me a chance to show you.. how much you mean to me. 

There are some parts of me that I could never let go, even though memories have faded. you were one of them that I'd never forget.
But til then.. I spend time in this abyss trying to find myself again. Hoping with fragile wings.. I can escape this emotional bind im in. "

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This piece was heavily influenced by these songs, so please listen to all of them, to get the right vibes when you look at this piece.

The Main song for this piece is called "Alternate World" by Son Lux
youtu.be/5wnIs71n_kE?list=RDXq…

 Second song for this piece is called " Human" by Of Monsters and Men
youtu.be/0EnrFe3Zb6k

Just a little vent piece, that I've been wanting to do for quite sometime. Especially with Morbid and Temptation, since they didn't have such a happy ending, the last time i drew them. And I will say I'm extremely happy with how this all turned out This is my 3rd drawing in Corel painter with my new tablet. I've been working on this piece since Saturday. And all together it had taken 12 hours to complete. I really poured my heart into this one. It sort of speaks for itself. 

I've fucked up a lot in my life, and theres things I know I've broken, so I'm doing my best to rebuild and redo a lot of aspects in my life. (Long story short). Especially rebuilding an old friendship that slowly faded without reason. I just want to fix everything and make it up to parts of my past that were dark storms and shed light upon it.

Again been very Nostalgic and Somber lately, but also not. It's weird. anyways Enjoy!
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Edit : (Found crisper version of art piece/ saved it as a PNG file instead. - shows off more of the details and defining parts)
Digital drawing - Drawn on Corel Painter essentials 5 with Wacom drawing tablet.

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Past pieces of these 2.